Sunday, October 11, 2020

Holy shit--getting back to this.

I had not realized it had been over 9 years since I posted here. In looking to get myself back under control, I wanted to look at using this again. So, brief catch-up for anyone who might actually read this: 

- In the last 9 years, my kids are now 10 and 12. My weight loss stalled in a major way in about 2012 or so and I hovered for a few years between 350 and 400. I took up Shotokan Karate during that time period and am currently a Brown-White (2nd Kyu) in that style. Then the Covid-19 Pandemic hit. That, combined with various other factors, sent my stress eating and lack of exercising through the roof. My weight went north of 400 (about 413 to be exact), which it's not been at since shortly after I moved up to North Carolina in 2000. This past week, I finally went the "well, this ain't gonna work" point. As part of this, I'm applying a mantra I've been using for a year or so and pulled it fully front and center: 

There's always an excuse--just do the work

This was partially inspired by Cody Rhodes' slogan for wrestling (Do the work), but the main portion is the "There's always an excuse" portion. There's always an excuse not to work out, not to each right, not to get started, or the like. And far too many of us (me definitely included) let the excuses win and end up doing nothing. 

Over the past couple of years, I've seen about a half dozen friends go on major weight loss journeys, all of them due to having some form of bariatric surgery. I seriously considered it myself, but I also took a long hard look at myself and realized that I am not even remotely in a mindset where it would work for me. The main reason is because of my comfort and binge eating that would be absolutely counter productive to having a successful journey on that path. With that realization, it's back to the old fashioned way to get my mind into an arena where I'm not sabotaging myself that way. 

So, what am I doing? That is the million dollar question, yes? So here is the current plan for me: 

Sunday:
Walking (started at a 1/2 mile)
Gorilla Bow Arm/Shoulder Workout
- Bicep Curl (Red band): 3x10
- Upright Row (Red band): 3x10
- Decline Press (Red and Yellow band): 3x15
- Shrugs (Red/Yellow band): 3x15
- Shoulder Press (Red Band): 3x10

Monday:
Kata

Tuesday:
Walking
Gorilla Bow Back/Chest workout
- Incline Press (Red/Yellow band): 3x10
- Chest Press (Red/Yellow band): 3x15
- Seated Row (Red/Yellow band): 3x15
- Lat Pull Downs (Red/Yellow band): 3x15

Wednesday:
Kata

Thursday:
Walking
Gorilla Bow Core/Legs
- Bow Twist
- Lateral Squat
- Front Squat
- Calf Raises

Friday:
REST

Saturday:
Kata

In theory, Monday and Saturday will get worked back into classes at the dojo, but I need to get my cardio and weight back under control there--the weight more for the sake of my knees than anything else. As any martial artist will tell you, there's definite stress on the joints--especially the leg joints--regardless of it being kata, kihon, or kumite. I'm going to try and post here weekly (at least) and go with daily accountability on facebook with my weight loss filter there. The actual weight numbers will likely have to wait due to the simple fact I'm too heavy for my scale right now (yeah, I know...right?). 

If you're here reading, great. Even if no one reads this, it still gives me accountability and documentation. The goal is still 200 pounds in two years, which will get me down into a dad bod range. As I approach 50, I'm more than happy with that idea of physicality. I don't need to be ripped enough to compete in the Welterweight or Middleweight divisions in the UFC. I'm perfectly happy having a low end heavyweight body at this point that could make Light Heavyweight with a solid weight cut.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Food Log: May 25

Flex points are there to be used. That's something I have to remind myself of when I feel guilty about using them. I met an out of town friend last night for a drink when she got into town, and I had one drink (amazing, one Woodchuck Cider is only 2 points now), and I wanted to have something on my stomach rather than just drinking on an essentially empty stomach. Besides, it's toward the end of this week for tracking, and I'd not used any of the flex points yet, and I still have activity points behind it.

And yes, Taco Bell is bad for me. However, I needed something quick when I ran out today, and it was the only thing remotely palatable to my mind.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Morning
1 cup(s) Raisin Bran 5
1/8 cup(s) 2% reduced fat milk 0
Subtotal 5
Midday
1 item(s) Burritos Burrito Supreme, Beef 10
1 item(s) Tacos Soft Taco Supreme, Beef 6
Subtotal 16
Evening
1 serving(s) Broccoli Florets (plain) 0
2 serving(s) Classico Sun-dried Tomato Alfredo Sauce 5
2 serving(s) Buitoni Herb Chicken Tortellini 17
Subtotal 22
Anytime
1 medium orange(s) 0
1 small pear(s) 0
1 serving(s) Sunbelt Fruit & Grain Bar 4
1 serving(s) Land o' Frost Oven Roasted Turkey Breast Slices 2
2 serving(s) Skinny Cow Strawberry Cheesecake ice cream 8
3 serving(s) Newton Fruit Crisps 8
1 large banana(s) 0
1 serving(s) Kroger Lite Key Lime Pie Yogurt 2
1 serving(s) Woodchuck Amber Cider 2
Queso Poblano & Chips - Quick-added food 14
Subtotal 40
Food PointsPlus values total used 83
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Food Log: May 24

I'm actually rather amused at how many points I get for shooting pool, but I suppose it's rewarding being active rather than sitting on your ass.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Morning
1 serving(s) Kroger Lite Peach Yogurt 2
1 serving(s) Sunbelt Fruit & Grain Bar 4
Subtotal 6
Midday
3 small flour tortilla(s) 3
1 fillet(s) cooked grouper fillet(s) 4
1/2 cup(s) refried beans 4
24 chip(s) tortilla chips 7
Subtotal 18
Evening
Chicken Bacon Wrap - Quick-added food 12
1 cup(s) Canned Beanless Chili 5
Cheese - Quick-added food 2
Subtotal 19
Anytime
1 serving(s) Land o' Frost Oven Roasted Turkey Breast Slices 2
1 medium orange(s) 0
2 serving(s) Skinny Cow Caramel Cone Ice Cream (Single Serve) 9
1 small pear(s) 0
1 1/2 cup(s) vanilla ice cream 11
1 serving(s) Newton Fruit Crisps 3
Subtotal 25
Food PointsPlus values total used 68
Food PointsPlus values remaining 2

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Food Log: May 23

I worked out of the office yesterday rather than at home, and there was some snacking that should have likely have been avoided. I am, however, a big fan of the Hebrew National Reduced Fat Hot Dogs. At one point a dog, I can get a solid hot dog fix without the bloat of your standard gas station hot dog (which is one of my big temptations). I really need to find the time to make it back to the gym so I can push the weight loss from that direction. Unfortunately, having added back on weight has brought back to the fore the ankle and foot issues that have plagued me over the years, which makes going to the gym quite literally a pain.

Monday, May 23, 2011
Morning
1 serving(s) Kroger Lite Peach Yogurt 2
1 serving(s) Sunbelt Fruit & Grain Bar 4
Subtotal 6
Midday
Chin Chin Mongolian Chicken Lunch 16
Subtotal 16
Evening
3 serving(s) Sara Lee Whole Grain White Hot Dog Buns 9
1 serving(s) Publix Shredded Cole Slaw 4
4 serving(s) Hebrew National 97% Fat Free Beef Franks 5
Subtotal 18
Anytime
1 serving(s) Kettle Cooked Sea Salt & Cracked Pepper Chips 6
1 serving(s) Newton Fruit Crisps 3
2 serving(s) Nature Valley Chewy Trail Mix Bar 8
2 1/2 serving(s) Orville Redenbacher's Natural Simply Salted Popcorn 2
1 item(s) Fast Food Hotdog 7
2 serving(s) Kroger Lite Key Lime Pie Yogurt 4
Subtotal 30
Food PointsPlus values total used 70

Monday, May 23, 2011

Food Log: May 22

Posted for accountability and with no real need for commentary. I will note, however, that it was somewhat disturbing to find out that a small order of hashbrowns from BK is 11 points. You'll notice that means the side is more fattening than the main course in their Croissan'wich value meals.

Sunday, May 22, 2011
Morning
1 serving(s) Breakfast CROISSAN'WICH® with Ham, Egg & Cheese 9
Subtotal 9
Midday
Mall Japanese - Quick-added food 11
Subtotal 11
Evening
1/2 cup(s) cooked green beans 0
6 oz cooked trimmed pork loin 9
1 slice(s) Texas Toast 3
Subtotal 12
Anytime
2 large banana(s) 0
Grilled Chicken Wrap - Quick-added food 11
3/4 cup(s) vanilla ice cream 6
1 brownie(s) Brownie, prepared 9
1 serving(s) Kroger Lite Key Lime Pie Yogurt 2
Subtotal 28
Food PointsPlus values total used 60
Food PointsPlus values remaining 10

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Food Log: May 21

In the interests of keeping accountable on things, here is what I had yesterday:

Saturday, May 21, 2011
Morning
1 serving(s) Sunbelt Fruit & Grain Bar 4
3/4 item(s) cooked skinless chicken thigh with bone 2
Subtotal 6
Midday
2 cup(s) seafood gumbo 11
Subtotal 11
Evening
Grilled Chicken Wrap - Quick-added food 11
1 item(s) chicken chimichanga 10
Subtotal 21
Anytime
1 serving(s) Fritolay Peanut Butter Crackers 6
1 item(s) Fast Food Hotdog 7
1 1/2 cup(s) vanilla ice cream 11
1 serving(s) Skinny Cow Ice Cream Sandwich 4
Subtotal 28
Food PointsPlus values total used 66
Food PointsPlus values remaining 4
Activity
45 min bowling 5
Activity PointsPlus values earned 5

Some commentary on yesterday:

- I was a bit shocked at how many points the Peanut Butter Crackers were. It worked out to about a point a cracker. Of course, it's carbs and peanut butter, so I shouldn't be so surprised.
- I should probably check on the gumbo to see what variety they use. The one I had used okra as the thickener, which is usually a bit better for you than one that uses a classic rue.
- I'm am horribly out of shape when it comes to doing things like bowling. It was fun, but my body was obviously not used to it.

I am glad I stayed within my point total yesterday. Weekends are always a pain, and when I went out to play poker last night, I wondered if I'd be dipping into my flex points. The main key for me is getting out of the comfort habit of grabbing a milkshake about once a day. That will go a long way to cutting down on my caloric intake.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Starting Over

So the last few months have been difficult, and, as is often the case, my weight loss took a 180 and headed in the wrong direction. As of this morning, I'm back up to 349.4 pounds, which is a backslide from my lowest weight of almost 40 pounds.

This changes today. Saturday has been my weigh-in day for a while, and this is an appropriate day to turn it around and start going in the correct direction again.

What this also means is I'll be posting here on a daily basis, even if it's just my food log to stay accountable in a public fashion for staying on track. I made good progress before, and I can start doing so again. I also hope this will help get me out of my funk in other arenas and put me on a more positive path.

The roller coaster has crested its second hill. It's time to finish the downhill run.