In an effort to keep accountable for my habits to try and break this cycle, I'm going to post my food log here daily as well as any exercise done (if any).
Breakfast:
Jalapeno Hot Dog (Quiktrip) - 5 pts
Lunch:
Mellow Mushroom Pizza (2 slices) - 10 pts
Dinner:
Szechaun Shrimp w/ Rice - 7 pts
3/4 Cup Fried Okra - 6 pts
Anytime Foods:
Apple Cinnamon Cereal Bar - 2 pts
Mixed Berry Cereal Bar - 2 pts
Banana - 2 pts
Rice Krispie Treat - 4 pts
Kroger Light Yogurt - 1 pt
1/2 Cup Vanilla Ice Cream - 3 pts
Total Points: 42
Available: 44
Exercise: Carrying poker tables (neglible)
Friday, November 5, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Owning up to reality
Over the past couple of months, I've completely fallen off the wagon. I've also acknowledged the fact that I'm an addict. There is a history of alcoholism in my family, and I've done everything I could to avoid falling into that pit. Instead of doing so, however, I'm simply substituted food for alcohol. While the term 'comfort food' gets thrown around, it's very much the truth for me. I eat due to being addicted to the feelings elicited while eating, and I suffer the same crashing guilt after I'm done.
In the past few weeks, I've gained back almost six pounds. While in the grand scheme of things, it's not a lot, it still represents a significant backslide in my mind and something I need to stop in its tracks. My stress level has gone way up in the last few months, which is a direct cause for my weight gain. I've been eating because I just didn't care anymore and just wanted the momentary joy of eating whatever I wanted to eat, weight be damned.
I went to lunch today at Mellow Mushroom (5 WWpts per slice of pizza, so it's actually a fairly good choice--it'll be even better once I get to doing a salad and a slice rather than two slices). On the way back, I stopped at the convenience store as usual and spent five or so minutes deciding on a snack option to finish off lunch. I picked up and discarded a couple of candy bar options and did the same with a rice krispie treat. In the end, I picked up a banana.
That, to me, represents a solid step in getting back on track with controlling my eating and making healthy choices. The trick is maintaining it and balancing it with the fact that 3-5 nights a week, I'm surrounding myself with restaurant/bar food that is a solid temptation. In a lot of ways, I'm like a drug addict who is constantly going to a drug den and trying to stay straight It's much more of a willpower fight for me, especially given that the addiction is primarily psychological rather than physiological.
As of today, I'm back to tracking points (currently at 23/44 for the day) and getting myself back on track to drop weight. I fully recognize that going into the holidays this is going to be a bit more difficult, but I can do it (I had a net loss of weight during the holidays last year). While I've conceded that my goal of two hundred pounds in two years is not going to happen now, I fully believe that 150 is well within my grasp still. I simply have to find my initial willpower, tap back into it, and continue moving in the correct direction.
In the past few weeks, I've gained back almost six pounds. While in the grand scheme of things, it's not a lot, it still represents a significant backslide in my mind and something I need to stop in its tracks. My stress level has gone way up in the last few months, which is a direct cause for my weight gain. I've been eating because I just didn't care anymore and just wanted the momentary joy of eating whatever I wanted to eat, weight be damned.
I went to lunch today at Mellow Mushroom (5 WWpts per slice of pizza, so it's actually a fairly good choice--it'll be even better once I get to doing a salad and a slice rather than two slices). On the way back, I stopped at the convenience store as usual and spent five or so minutes deciding on a snack option to finish off lunch. I picked up and discarded a couple of candy bar options and did the same with a rice krispie treat. In the end, I picked up a banana.
That, to me, represents a solid step in getting back on track with controlling my eating and making healthy choices. The trick is maintaining it and balancing it with the fact that 3-5 nights a week, I'm surrounding myself with restaurant/bar food that is a solid temptation. In a lot of ways, I'm like a drug addict who is constantly going to a drug den and trying to stay straight It's much more of a willpower fight for me, especially given that the addiction is primarily psychological rather than physiological.
As of today, I'm back to tracking points (currently at 23/44 for the day) and getting myself back on track to drop weight. I fully recognize that going into the holidays this is going to be a bit more difficult, but I can do it (I had a net loss of weight during the holidays last year). While I've conceded that my goal of two hundred pounds in two years is not going to happen now, I fully believe that 150 is well within my grasp still. I simply have to find my initial willpower, tap back into it, and continue moving in the correct direction.
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